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images (32)download (12)Hey everyone, i just joined Desmond Tutu’s global forgiveness challenge. I have never had a problem forgiving others, that actually comes quite easily for me. But what doesnt come easily or at all it seems is forgiving myself, i have made a lot of bad choices in my life, and caused everyone i love a lot of pain, mainly because of drugs and alcohol, but i made them none the less. I thought that with time i would be able to move on and begin to feel like a decent human being, but it hasnt happened yet. It is hard for me to even have a normal argument with my husband because somewhere in the middle of it, i start telling my self that after everything i put him through i have no right to argue about anything. ( He doesnt say that, i just think it about myself.) And I have so many wonderful followers who are always telling me how i am a great woman, and how strong i am. which is so very appreciated, but i always feel like they are talking about someone else, and like i dont really deserve what they are saying. I know that my husband, children, and everyone else who matters, has forgiven me but how do i forgive myself? I hope that the next 30 days of going through this challenge will bring me a little bit closer to the forgiveness i am seeking. Here is the link to the forgiveness challenge www.forgivenesschallenge.com in case anyone else needs some help with forgiving.

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15 responses

  1. Found you through Momma Bee’s blog. Just wanted to come over and say hello. I’m off/on with blog reading (and posting as of late). But I always enjoy connection with women in sobriety. There are so many great people out there staying sober and support others. Just wanted to leave a note that I was here since I read your blog. I will check out the forgiveness challenge. I am always looking for new tools and self-forgiveness is a big stumbling block for me at moments. My best, Lisa

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    May 4, 2014 at 2:06 pm

    • I know that self forgiveness is a big step, and how important it is, im just not sure how to accomplish it yet. Thanks for stopping by.

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      May 4, 2014 at 2:19 pm

  2. Sadly, we are our own worst critics. Go easy on yourself, small steps 🙂

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    May 4, 2014 at 4:45 pm

    • Yes most of the time we really are much harder on ourselves than we should be. Thank you for stopping by and commenting.

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      May 4, 2014 at 4:48 pm

  3. Best wishes with your journey. 🙂

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    May 5, 2014 at 2:22 am

  4. mishedup

    Hey there!
    I popped over through Michelle’s blog and saw that you are doing the forgiveness challenge, and am too.
    lets check in with each other.
    i too, am having the hardest time forgiving myself. i think that is, sadly, the human condition. i have no idea what i will learn from this journey, but am game!
    nice to meet you

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    May 5, 2014 at 12:44 pm

    • That sounds great, I am going to check your blog out right now

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      May 5, 2014 at 12:46 pm

    • Well I tried to view your blog, but it says it has been deleted

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      May 5, 2014 at 12:47 pm

      • mishedup

        http://mishiam.wordpress.com/
        yes…my blog name is different from the contact..I don’t know how it all works. Hope this helps.
        I haven’t been writing about this challenge on my blog, because i am doing the 25 songs 25 days challenge.

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        May 5, 2014 at 1:21 pm

      • Yes that worked, so im gonna head on over and follow your blog now. 🙂

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        May 5, 2014 at 1:24 pm

  5. This challenge is a brilliant idea!!! I hope it helps to bring you to where you want to be. Big Hugs!!!!!!!!!!

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    May 6, 2014 at 4:16 am

  6. Stopping by to say hey. I am also a mother of four. I found you through harsh reality site. I can agree with the difficulty of forgiving ourselves. I wish you the best on your challenge.

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    May 19, 2014 at 11:13 am

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