An open letter to my friends and followers ( THANK YOU )Hey everyone, it feels like it has been forever since i posted anything, but it has actually only been like 4 days, lol. Anyway my mind has been going a mile a minute for a good while, with all of the business of loans, houses, and credit scores going on, which unfortunately we did not get the house we wanted. It was considered to be in a high risk flood zone, so just flood insurance would have been 200 extra a month, which adds up to 2,400 extra every single year. So they would not approve the loan, and on top of that there has been another issue to just recently arise, that has everyone on edge, and worried. I cant really go into the details right now, but i will later. All i can really say about it right now, is that we are that much more anxious to move because of it.
I cant tell you how much all of my new friendships here on wordpress have meant to me, i have met some truly wonderful and inspiring people, who have helped me see stuff about myself that i never realized before. My tiny little blog which was initially meant to help others has probably helped me more than it will ever help anyone else. It has became my escape, my refuge, a place where i can come and bear my soul, and even though i have told you some of my darkest and worst moments, i have never felt anything other than encouragement and support from you. Those are very important things to have for anyone, but for a recovering drug addict, and alcoholic, it is that much more important. I especially am constantly doubting myself not my sobriety, but myself. Am i really a good person now, or am i just kidding myself, am i really a good mother, wife, friend, daughter, i could go on and on. But my new friends here have no reason to lie to me, you all dont have to worry about running into me at the grocery store, so there are no awkward moments trying to be avoided. You dont want anything from me, (which is good cause i have nothing to offer). You are my friends simply because you want to be. And you have no idea how much that means to someone like me. So thank you all so much, i appreciate and value each and every one of you.
Your friend Diana