So the hubby and I got invited to a benefit banquet for the pregnancy resource center this past monday night, and we really enjoyed it, our church is one of many in this area which donate to them! They are an excellent alternative to planned parenthood where 95 percent of their business is performing abortions, but the pregnancy resource center focuses on really helping women and their unborn babies! It was a great experience and we had a good time! Here is a pic of Darrell and I dropping kids off at his moms house before the banquet, we clean up pretty well I thought, lol!
I get to spend all day with this beautiful little baby, i love it.
Happy baby girl
My cat had 5 kittens aren’t they adorable.
So for those of you who dont know i am completely crazy when it comes to babies, i mean everybody who knows me knows that if there is a baby in our church or anywhere else like that, i will be holding the little cutie before i leave. If i didnt have so many complications with my pregnancies i would have 3 or 4 more, but anyway the point is i had a great week cause i got to babysit two of the cutest little babies. Which was a lot of fun especially cause they are both at that great snuggle age, all of my boys are pretty much past that now, my oldest is 20 and in college, i have my 11 year old who runs and hides if i try to hug him, my 5 year old will give me a hug and a kiss sometimes (depending on what kind of mood he is in, and my 3 year old just wants to smack me and run away. So it was awesome watching these 2 sweet little baby girls. Here are some pics.
Today is a not so easy day for me, you see today is my daughters birthday. Her name was Rain Mckayla and she passed away in 2008, if she were still with us she would be 7 years old today. I think about her and miss her every single day of my life but on this day the sadness is much greater. I can imagine all of the things we would be doing right now if she were with us, i would be fixing her hair and getting her ready for her party, where she would make birthday wishes and blow out birthday candles, and i would tell her how much i love her and how beautiful she looks in her birthday dress. But i cant do any of those things and my feelings about that range from extreme anger to unbearable sadness. Which is not easy to handle, so i wrote her a poem and i thought i would share it here.
My darling Rain you were taken from me years ago,
and yes you are in heaven this i know,
but i want you here with me to watch you play and grow,
So many things ill never see,
your sweet little smile or my beautiful daughter climbing a tree,
oh how i wish i could hold your hand and kiss your cheek,
and tell you how much i love you all through the week,
but i will talk to you every night when i pray,
and mommy will come home and be with you again some day.
and though no longer in my arms i will hold you in my heart,
and i promise we’ll never be far apart.
Happy Birthday Rain, mommy and daddy miss you and love you so much.
How do you deal with something that you so desperately want to change but can not. I saw a picure earlier of a 3 year old child from africa, you could see every bone in his body, he is starving to death and there is nothing I can do about it. This devastates me, it crushes me that there are babies and children starving and in pain and I can not change it. I want so badly to just rap my arms around all of them and tell them everything is going to be alright. I want to bring them to my home cover them up with a big soft blanket and feed them, but I cant. I hate that there are so many millionaires in this country and all over the world who do nothing to help and the ones that do help dont even do 5 percent of what they could. Why? I dont really even know why im posting this, it just hurt me to see that picture and realize I cant change that childs life, and I just felt like writing. But if there was a point to this post it would be for everyone to be more charitable towards others, and if you can put your children in a warm bed warm, not hungry, or in pain, then dont take that forgranted be grateful because so many people all over the world do not have the ability to do that.
My son, his name is Donnie and he is 2 years old, he will be 3 on January 15th and he is such a little miracle.
Donnie was born at 23 weeks gestation he weighed 1 pound 2 ounces (a micro preemie) and the doctors told us he that was probably going to die. There was an 85 % chance he would not survive. He was on the strongest breathing machine possible, and his little eyes were still sealed shut, but we had faith that he would make it. There were a couple of nights that things did not look good, and the doctors kept asking us to consider turning off the machines that were keeping him alive. They suggested that i could hold my son as he passed away, but we simply could not and would not do it.
I can’t really explain it in words but i knew he would be okay.
I can’t tell you how many nights they said he would not make it to the next morning, and i would cry and pray and beg God to heal him, and for him to give me strength, and he did. Donnie had to have 6 abdominal surgeries, because his intestines kept rupturing, he had to have a colostamy bag, and had 4 draining tubes all at once, plus 1 heart surgery to close a valve, and eye injections because he had rop, and most of this was before he even weighed 2 pounds. But finally the day came six months later when he got to come home and weighing in at a staggering 6 pounds. That was one of the happiest days of my life and that is the reason that no one will ever convince me that miracles dont happen. So do you believe in miracles? Have you ever experienced a miracle? If so i would love to hear about it.
When i was pregnant with our first son, i dreamt that my baby was an egg, (yes an egg), and i kept my very special egg on a shelf where i could constantly check on it to make sure it was okay and see if it had hatched. It was my husbands birthday and i was throwing him a big birthday party, well while i was preparing his cake i realized i only had 2 eggs and i needed 3, so i was upset. My mother then came in the kitchen and said whats wrong, i told her i couldn’t make Darrell’s cake because i only had 2 eggs, so she started to rummage through her purse and said here you can use this one. I said thank you and finished making his cake. Well the party went very well and everyone had a good time, when people started to leave i went to check on my little egg/baby and it was gone. I started freaking out and i ran in the living room to tell Darrell and my mother that it was gone, my mom spoke up and said are you talking about the egg you had on that shelf ? I said yes have you seen it, and she said that is the egg i gave you for the cake. I started to scream and cry and ran to the kitchen where the cake was, to figure out how to get my egg/baby out of the cake, but the cake had been cooked and half eaten. I hit my knees and just starting screaming, and that is when i woke up. When i woke up i was still crying and shaking, and it still amazes me how real such a stupid dream could feel.
So my challenge for you is to tell me about your weirdest dreams, write a post about your weirdest dream, and then either send me the link to it or leave something about it in the comments, and I will reblog it. but keep it clean, cause if you have a potty mouth I will not be able to reblog it. Im anxious to see if anyone cant top this one, lol. 🙂
What I am about to talk about is in no way an effort to condemn anyone who may have had this procedure done. It is however an effort to convince women not to do it in the future . The topic I want to discuss today is one of great controversy, Abortion! Abortion is one of the most highly debated issues all over the world. Because it involves 2 people physically and many more emotionally. So i want to take a little time to tell you what i think about some of the most commonly made statements. One of the most common opinions is that the woman who is pregnant has the right to do whatever she wants because it is her body. I say that is a load of crap! Because while the child is inside her body the baby itself is not a part of her, but rather a living part of her and the babies father, and that is the part she wants to kill not herself but another living being. And I’m sure that right now there arw a lot of pro choice people screaming at their computer screen saying, its not living its just a fetus. Well you can call it a tomato for all i care the fact remains that a babies heart starts beating. within 4 weeks after the mothers last. menstrual period, and if it has a heartbeat then it is alive. now what is it called when someone kills another living person, no matter what age they are? Murder! So why is it okay for a mother to murder her unsuspecting, innocent baby? Now lets talk about the cruelty comments . I have heard several people say it is cruel to force a woman to have a baby she doesn’t want, I have a different opinion here as well. These days there is more then enough knowledge about pregnancy prevention floating around, so that no one should be ignorant about it anymore. and if you’re not smart enough to take these preventative measures then you shouldn’t be having sex in the first place. Think abput this if a person go’s out and commits a crime they get put in jail, right. Well it could be looked at as cruel to put a person in a cage, and force them to stay there, away from their family and against their will. Does this mean we should open the door and let them go home? No, of course not. They did something and now have to suffer the consequences. The same can be said with accidental pregnancy you know it is a possibility that yoy could get pregnant, so if you can not handle the consequences of your actions then don’t do the act. Now this brings up the question what if she didn’t do the act? What if she was raped? While i can definitely understand a woman not wanting to have a baby that was conceived by rape, i still do not agree with abortion. There are other options, like the morning after pill that can be used up to 5 days after unprotected sex to prevent pregnancy. Notice i said prevent pregnancy. Many people think that the morning after pill is like an abortion that you swallow. This is completely untrue. It actually does nothing to a baby but prevents ovulation so that a baby is never conceived. Okay as with just about everything else in this world their are a few exceptions to my thoughts on abortion. Numer 1. If there is a real life or death situation and the mothers life can not be saved without terminating the pregnancy, number 2. Incest for obvious reasons both physical and emotional, but mainly the physical state of the child, and 3rd. In cases where the baby has no brain activity or would just barely be able to suffer through life. Cases like these should be the only reason that an abortion is ever performed. Not because a baby would be an inconvenience or make you uncomfortable. That is just heartbreaking, if you don’t want a baby, then give the child up for adoption. There are so many people in this world unable to have children. Don’t kill the blessing you have received but if you’re not ready for it then pass the blessing on to someone who will treasure it. So in conclusion please women don’t allow yourself to be blinded by what society considers okay, abortion most certainly is not okay. I truly hope this helps someone, if it prevents just one abortion then it was more than worth it. Thanks for reading
I am seriously annoyed with some of the women in this country, it seems like no one understands what is important anymore. everywhere i look there are more women complaining. MY daughter likes pink and it bothers me, i am a woman and i deserve more rights, i am a woman so i should be able to murder my baby without judgment. These kinds of topics are all over the televisions newspapers and internet. So Here are some solutions. #1. Pink is a color if a color has the power to bother you that much you are a very shallow person and you need something more to fill up your day, just be happy that you have a daughter, mine is no longer with me. #2. Women have the same rights as men in this country stop whining, you have made it, you are there, you are equal, actually that last one is not true women now have more rights than men do.#3. If you do something evil and gross people are going to think of you differently.
I recently saw a post on wordpess that was talking about how a woman had used crack while she was pregnant and the baby died, she was charged with depraved heart murder. anyway long story short the person who wrote this post was like so happy because this woman got by with murder,she was saying thank you to this woman like she had just saved a baby from a burning building rather than the fact that she just killed her own, it actually made me sick to my stomach, and she was quite furious with me for saying the situation was disgusting. Then proceeded to inform me how breeders like me make her sick and that my boys should be taught respect, or they would end up dead or in prison with the other rapists and murderers. Now i was trying to hold back my anger until then but that comment was the last straw. For one thing I teach my children to respect those who deserve their respect, and to leave the trashy ones alone altogether, but it wasnt that she tried to make it personal that really bothered me, it was that this is a commen attitude towards boys and men now, and that makes me so sad for my sons. But i will try my hardest to raise my children right and teach them never to take crap from a woman just because she is a woman. And i can speak up and say women stop acting stupid try to remember what is important in life. I know its been a long time since most of you have done that ( if ever) but please try. Now dont get me wrong i know there are still some good women out there, but man its getting bad, i would say maybe 4 out of every 10 women are actually good moral women. How has it gotten this far? how have women, the ones who were once thought of as the most moral and nurturing, turned into this. I dont know, but it really is a sad situation.
My smile will never be seen, my laugh will never be heard, they called me a parasite this is absurd.
My mommy decided abortion was best, i wish i had a voice so i could protest.
If i did i would say mommy please dont let me go, this is my life and i want it so,
Please mommy dont take my life away, i like it here and i really wanna stay.
What have i done, and what can i do, its not my fault im inside you.
But a voice i do not have so soon i will die, how could you do this to me mommy please tell me why?
This weeks life through the lens challenge is love, i didnt draw this one because i dont think i could do it justice, or capture all of the emotion in it, im definitly not that good yet. But this is what i think love looks like. This is me at 18 holding my first born (D.j.) for the very first time, and the amount of love i felt at that moment was almost to much to handle, i personally think this picture shows that pretty clearly. I dont think there is any love stronger than the love between a (good) mother and her child it is an amazing feeling.
This weeks Life through the Lens challenge was Miraculous, so i drew three pictures of the most miraculous things i can think of, my children when they were babies. Two of which almost didnt survive, but all of my little ones are my miracles. Being a mother to them is the best job in the world and i wouldnt trade it for all the money in the world.
I just got through reading an article that made me so mad i am actually shaking as i type. This article was defending late term abortions, and the content of this article was complete and total horse crap. Its crazy that there are so many people all riled up over a woman hunting large game in Africa, but we allow this kind of thing to happen to unborn babies. In case any of you arent aware anything after 20 weeks gestation is considered a late term abortion. Ok the article i just read stated that babies can not feel pain until they are born, which is absolutely not true. A baby is most susceptible to pain between 20 and 25 weeks its a medical fact and aside from that i know when my son was born at 23 weeks he had to have a fentanyl pump going all the time (very strong pain medicine). it also said that babies are unconscious while in the womb, any woman who has been pregnant knows how stupid that is. i dont think anyone who is unconscious could kick that hard. I just do not understand what is wrong with people and how they can justify this behavior. Now even with late term abortions the most used statement is that its not a baby yet, well im gonna show you some pictures of my son donnie when he was born, at 23 weeks which is when a lot of these abortions are performed and even later, and you tell me if you think this is already a baby or not.