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Blogging and Followers



Hey everyone as of today i have been blogging for exactly one year, yay.
It really doesnt seem like it has been that long, i mean im just now getting use to calling myself a blogger.
It has been great though, i have gotten to know some amazing, and truly inspiring people, and maybe, (hopefully) even helped a few along the way.
One thing that happened that i didnt expect, is that blogging has really helped me in a big way, its helped me to see my self in a different light. When i first started this i still felt like a failure, even though i had already been clean for more than 2 years, i still felt like that same drug addict and alcoholic, but now i dont. Writing things out and letting everyone see who i really am has helped me discover things about myself that i didnt realize before. I love blogging and i so enjoy reading all my followers comments, your support and encouragement means so much to me, after all without followers blogging really doesnt mean much at all. So a very special thank you to all of my friends and followers, it has been great getting to know all of you, and i look forward to another year of crazy posts and comments.

Diana Roark aka mommyx4boys

Sons of Anarchy review (spoilers)

images (55)download (28)Okay i absolutely loved The sons of Anarchy, but sadly tonight was the last episode, and i cried like a baby. Short version of what happened is he tells his kids and club goodbye, kills all the people who could cause trouble for the club, Talks to his father and says he understands everything now, Then he ends his life the same way his father did, by hitting a tractor-trailer head on. Now one weird thing they did was that the rig he ran into is the same one that took gimma to her dads house before he went and killed her. It was sad and i feel as though i just lost a friend, weird huh? I knew that he would die but i still kinda hoped in the back of my mind that maybe he would just go down to nero’s place and raise his kids right with wendy. So i dont really think it was a good or bad last episode, it was just sad. I will miss spending an hour on Tuesdays watching this awesome show.

Where My Peeps at? Again

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Okay so im just wondering, am i like one of the last few people left on wordpress or what, cause there hasnt been hardly any posting or commenting going on lately. Here are some of my theories as to what may have happened.

1. There was an alien abduction that i am unaware of, and they left me because they only wanted intelligent life.

2. Maybe there is a strange smell coming from my blog that is keeping people away, totally explainable by the way.

3. Perhaps people were afraid of being urinated on after reading my most embarrassing challenge post, I dont drink anymore so its safe.

4. Maybe you could hear my kids screaming and fighting through the computer screen and you were afraid i would ask you to babysit. I wont, unless i get really mad at you.

5. Did you grow tired of hearing about my love for all things zombie? Its totally not my fault it is a disease.

6. Maybe ethyl has been spreading rumors again, dont listen to her she is a filthy liar, i dont have cuties.

It could be either one of these, but I need to know, Where are my peeps at? 😉

Trying to make things right

If i let you see who i really am would you try to understand, if i let you see who i really am would you go or would you stand?
If i let you see who i really am would you like me none the less, if i let you see who i really am would you say im just a mess?
I show you who i really am and never waver on whats right, and though my faith may be shaken at times, i will continue to fight.
This is me who i really am, just trying to make things right.

One – Liner Wednesday

What you have done for yourself alone dies with you, what you have done for others and the world lives on.

You Are Awesome

images (48)Hey everybody just wanted to let you know how awesome yawl are. I now have 400 followers, did i mention that you’re awesome? I appreciate each and every one of you so much,and i never imagined that so many people would care to read what i write. I started my blog in hopes of helping others whether that be for addiction or for the loss of a child or anything else i could be helpful with, but having this blog has really helped me, meeting all of you wonderful people has helped me discover things about myself that i was otherwise unaware of. You have all been a huge inspiration for me, So i just wanted to take minute to say thanks and you rock.

Awards and Awesomeness

liebster4Hey everybody,
so i was nominated for 3 awards this time, first i was nominated for The One Lovely blog award by, and i was nominated for the Liebster award and The Versatile Blogger award by Andy over at Thankyou both so much i really appreciate being nominated, especially by 2 people as awesome as yawl. Now i just recently got the one lovely blog award and the versatile blogger award so im not gonna do those again, but it has been a while since i got the liebster award so i am gonna do that one.

The rules for this award are…

1. Thank the person who nominated you for the award
2. Display the banner/sticker/logo on your blog
3. Answer the questions the award giver asked
4. List 11 facts about yourself
5. List your nominees

The 11 questions…

1. If you could make one piece of clothing illegal, what would it be? Hoochie shorts, the ones that look like underwear, seriously my kids dont need to see that.
2. If you could travel anywhere, for free, where would you go? And why? Ireland, I would love to see where my ancestors came from.
3. If the bank made a mistake, and put sixty thousand dollars in your account, what would you do? Put 15 thousand in savings accounts for each of my children.
4. What are your thoughts on legalizing marijuana? I dont really think we need another drug that is legal, but at the same time i dont think that marijuana is as bad as alcohol.
5.What is your favorite childhood memory? My dad standing at the end of the hallway and picking me up just like the scene from the movie dirty dancing, we would do this every night for a good while after i saw the movie, i was about 7.
6. What did you want to be when you grew up, and what do you do instead? A wife and mother, my dreams came true.
7. What happened on the best workday you’ve ever had? I am a stay at home mom so if my kids arent sick and they go to sleep before midnight then its an awesome day.
8. What was your favorite thing that your mother used to cook for you? My mother never did anything right as a mother, but i loved her chicken and dumplins.
9. Do you believe in soul mates or love at first sight? I dont know about love at first sight, but i do believe in soul mates, i am with mine.
10. If you could go back in time, and change one thing, what would it be? If i could retain the knowledge i have now i would go back and tell myself to never drink or do drugs.
11. Are you married? And if so, describe your proposal. Yes, I was working as a barista at the time, on my lunch break Darrell came down and we were walking in front of the court house (which is beautiful)

court house

court house

and he got down on one knee, presented me with a beautiful ring and said i wanna spend the rest of my life with you, will you marry me? And of course i said yes. But we had already been together for 7 years and didnt get married for another 3.

11 facts about me…

1. My middle name is Nicole.
2. I dont like movies about space, like star wars.
3. I never had an imaginary friend or really believed in Santa.
4. I never thought aging would bother me, it does.
5. I am not a morning person, i have to make myself be in a good mood in the mornings.
6. I get very cranky when im hungry.
7. I can catch almost any animal with my hands, i have caught possum, rabbits, snakes, and chickens, and thats just in my yard.
8. I love shark week
9. I dont like to kill things, even bugs and spiders. I will catch them in a cup and put them outside.
10. I love the show Fast and Loud and street outlaws
11. I have 2 dogs like 13 cats and about 35 chickens, all outside animals except for one dog.

Now for the nominees…


My questions for the nominees…

1. If you had one wish what would it be?
2. If you could change one law, what would it be and why?
3. What is your favorite movie?
4. What is your dream job?
5. If you could travel to a different time period, when would it be?
6. Do you love zombies, if not why?
7. Who is your favorite actor/actress
8. Do you now or have you ever had a nickname?
9. What would you want your last meal to be?
10. What is your biggest fear?
11. Do you think im awesome? lol

One Lovely Blog Award

download (19)Hey everybody,
I was just nominated for the One Lovely Blog Award by one of my absolute best blogging buddies, April at she is an amazing person who has been a big inspiration to me and a great friend as well, if you dont already follow her i highly recommend you do so now.

There are a few guidlines that come With accepting this award
1. Thank the person who nominated you for the award.
2. Display the One Lovely Blog Award on your blog.
3. Share 7 things about yourself.
4. Nominate 15 bloggers you admire, and let them know by commenting on their blog.

Seven things about me…
1. Im still kinda afraid of the dark, dont laugh at me i said Kinda.
2. I would have 4 more babies if my body would let me, well and my husband, lol.
3. On July 27th i will have been clean and sober for 3 years.
4. All i ever want to be is a good woman, a great wife, and a better mom.
5. I would rather be punched in the eye than have someone i love mad at me.
6. I go crazy over Halloween, everything gets decorated and i love every second of it, in fact i would be happy if i could keep it that way all year long.
7. I think one of the most important things i can teach my children is to be happy with the simple things in life.

And now for my nominees


Thanks again for nominating me April, you are such a sweetie.
And if you guys dont know all these amazing bloggers then make sure you go check em out and click that follow button you wont be disappointed.

Cartoon me

Cartoon me

Cartoon me

I want to thank my friend The Indecisive Eejit for starting these drawing challenges, i had forgotten how much i love to draw until i started doing these. So this weeks challenge was to draw cartoon versions of ourselves, it was quite a bit harder than last weeks cat in a hat challenge, but more fun also. So anyway here is mine, its not all that great, but i had fun doing it.

Cartoon craziness cat in a hat

Okay last time i didnt do as i was supposed to so this time i followed the rules for my friend the indecisive eejit’s challenge. This is my cartoon craziness cat-woman in a hat.

Promote Your Blog

download (11)This post is not all about me, this post is for anyone who has ever went a day or two with out gaining any new followers, likes, or comments. It drives me crazy when that happens,images (30) so if you have been there then this post is for you. In the comments section feel free to leave a link to your blog as well as telling people a little bit on what your blog is about. I hope this helps everyone.

6 month anniversary

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Hey everybody, i was just sitting here watching The Walking Dead marathon, which i didnt even know about until my friend Melissa told me, crazy right. She also nominated me for the very inspiring blogger award, since i just got this award the other day i am not gonna be doing another post on it, but i wanted to say thank you very much to Melissa from and if you havent read her blog and followed her yet you definitely should, she is awesome.

Anyway i was watching The Walking Dead marathon when i realized that today marks my six month anniversary for trying to make things right. Awsomeness, woot woot.
We have came a long way in 6 months, with 314 followers and 5,637 views. I realize compared to other peoples blogs those numbers are tiny, but to me they are huge and amazing. There are 314 people that i have never met, who care what i think, that amazes me. I never imagined that this blog would be so important to me. When i started it i had never even read a blog, and barely new what a blog was, i just thought hey why not, but now it matters to me. I have met some wonderful people who i now think of as very dear friends, i know a lot of people dont think friendships made over the internet are real friendships, but to me they are. The friends that i have made here mean just as much to me as any friend i have ever had, and i am very grateful for each and every one of you.
In the process of creating this blog i have learned a lot, including one of the most helpful things that i have ever learned, which is that its okay to forgive myself for the things i have done wrong. When i started this blog i felt like i was carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders with no where to unload, but this is a place where i can do just that, and hopefully help someone else in the process. I am so glad i decided to start this blog, it has made me a better person, talking with each and every one of you has made me a better person, So i thank you for that. Heres to another six months. Also i have noticed a lot of people still call me mommyx4boys which is fine if thats what you prefer, but my name is Diana Roark so feel free to call me Diana if you want.

An open letter to my friends and followers ( THANK YOU )

Me this past christmas

Me this past christmas

Hey everyone, it feels like it has been forever since i posted anything, but it has actually only been like 4 days, lol. Anyway my mind has been going a mile a minute for a good while, with all of the business of loans, houses, and credit scores going on, which unfortunately we did not get the house we wanted. It was considered to be in a high risk flood zone, so just flood insurance would have been 200 extra a month, which adds up to 2,400 extra every single year. So they would not approve the loan, and on top of that there has been another issue to just recently arise, that has everyone on edge, and worried. I cant really go into the details right now, but i will later. All i can really say about it right now, is that we are that much more anxious to move because of it.
I cant tell you how much all of my new friendships here on wordpress have meant to me, i have met some truly wonderful and inspiring people, who have helped me see stuff about myself that i never realized before. My tiny little blog which was initially meant to help others has probably helped me more than it will ever help anyone else. It has became my escape, my refuge, a place where i can come and bear my soul, and even though i have told you some of my darkest and worst moments, i have never felt anything other than encouragement and support from you. Those are very important things to have for anyone, but for a recovering drug addict, and alcoholic, it is that much more important. I especially am constantly doubting myself not my sobriety, but myself. Am i really a good person now, or am i just kidding myself, am i really a good mother, wife, friend, daughter, i could go on and on. But my new friends here have no reason to lie to me, you all dont have to worry about running into me at the grocery store, so there are no awkward moments trying to be avoided. You dont want anything from me, (which is good cause i have nothing to offer). You are my friends simply because you want to be. And you have no idea how much that means to someone like me. So thank you all so much, i appreciate and value each and every one of you.

Your friend Diana
aka mommyx4boys