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Lost childhood

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Lost childhood, this is something i think about quite frequently. Things like where would i be now if i had not wasted so much of my time drinking and doing drugs. you see i started drinking at a very early age. My wonderful mother let me get drunk for the first time at the ripe age of 9. And i loved how it made me feel, from that point on i gradually got worse, and by the age of 15 i had graduated alcoholics anonymous. by the way my mom helped me realize it didnt matter what i did the rest of the week as long as i wasnt drinking the day of my meetings, and that is how i graduated aa. It was a big joke in my family, i was diana their little alcoholic, no kidding that is what they called me, funny huh. I thought it was cool at the time. i never would have thought it would almost cost me my family and my life down the road. So those issues plus developing an addiction to pain pills a couple years after our 10 year old son was born, that equals a lot of wasted time, and missed opportunities. I never got to go to a school dance or prom, never got my license, never had a sweet sixteen party, and never graduated high school. and its not just the missed opportunities that bother me, but also that i thought all of it was normal. All the stupid stuff i saw my parents do, and the things i grew up with seemed normal to me. It wasnt until i met my husband that someone finally told me, hey that is really messed up. i just wish i had listened to him from the beginning, but i didnt i thought he was trying to control me. That was something my mother always used to say, men are only interested in 2 things sex, and controlling you. A part of me wishes i could go back in time and change these things. But the other part of me realizes that i would not be who i am now if i did that. And even though i may not be special or extraordinary by anybody elses standards, for the first time in my life i am very satisfied with myself.

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Daddy’s Disease (Book Review)

4a23378c7e88747ed4497849e676f0f4Hey everyone,
This morning i read a book, a book that i feel has the ability to help mend a childs broken heart, and give clarity where there was confusion. The book i am talking about is called, Daddy’s Disease, written by Carolyn Hannan Bell. It is a children’s book, that helps children who have an alcoholic parent understand what alcoholism is and how it works. Let me just say the author is genius in how she knows an alcoholics mind, and the simplicity she uses to explain alcoholism so that a child really understands. This book is not one that would bring most people to tears, but it did with me, because being a recovering alcoholic myself, i know that my children experienced some of these same feelings. Even though i have explained addiction to my children, i dont think they could truly grasp what i was saying, so i am going to be reading this book to them, just as soon as i have it in my hands. Now it is a childrens book but honestly i know many adults who could possibly benifit from reading it as well. So even if you dont have children, you should check it out.
When someone has a spouse who is an alcoholic, it is more often than not very hard to overcome their own emotional stress, and it can be hard to find the right words to explain to their children, exactly what is going on in a way that they understand it. This book is the perfect way to ensure that children know what is happening, and that most importantly they know that it is in know way their fault. I absolutely would recommend this book to anyone who has an alcoholic in the there family, or to anyone who just has a hard time really understanding how alcoholism works. I would like to thank Mrs. Carolyn Hannan Bell for writing such a wonderful book in efforts to help children experience less pain, due to having an alcoholic parent. For more information or to order a copy of her book go to http://www.alcoholismhurtskids.com Daddy’s Disease is also available as Mommy’s Disease.